I reconsidered my life goals. 

I was watching It’s Complicated (staring Meryl Streep and Alec Baldwin) with my dad for maybe the 6th time. I then described to my dad that one of the reasons why I watch movies like that (and by ‘that’ I mean the style of The Family Stone, It’s Complicated… etc..etc) is because I love the kitchens and the homes that the characters live in. 

I could rant for hours how perfectly cozy yet chique the design of these homes are. They feel old and lived in, yet have an incredibly welcoming factor to them for entertaining guests. I guess the term would be “shabby-chique”. 

My dad then stated very plainly, “Just work really hard, make a lot of money, and you could have one of those homes as soon as possible. Don’t wait.” 

I knew what he meant by that was, “Don’t wait for a man to complete your dreams”. And I realized that I have been thinking about marriage far too much. I’m only 20 years old for Christ’s sake. Yes, I desperately want a husband and kids but that doesn’t mean I have to wait for them to have what I want. Especially living-wise. I CAN have one of those houses if I really want it. I could do it by myself. But that also scares me, I think it’s partly because I’m a little lazy when it comes to future planning. I have wonderful ideas, but sometimes don’t follow through or I wait for someone to do it for me. Usually it’s personal things, not related to work or school. 

I realized that I could do it. If I put my mind to it. I will have that “shabby-chique” house with the giant kitchen and vintage bath in the master bathroom. I will have a beautiful back yard where lanterns hang over the patio. 

I will have that house.